Selfish thoughts

So a friend of a friend got pregnant from a guy she was seeing. This guy is married to another woman who has been trying to get pregnant for a while but has had some fertility issues. After a lot of debating friend of a friend decided to have an abortion.

Very good friend just found out she is pregnant and this was completely unplanned. She too contemplated having an abortion but ended up deciding against it. I am truly happy for her and know the baby will be nothing but loved and cared for.

While I am pro-choice and believe every woman has the right to choose I find myself having selfish thoughts because I want to be pregnant and have a baby why did I have a miscarriage??

I know it doesn't matter how much you want it whatever happens will happen I'm just feeling selfish today and asking why me???

..::puts away violin::..